Week one...

It’s been a minute since I blogged and I swear this week I’ve lived at least three completely separate lives. I should be entitled to three separate paychecks at this point.

Life One... parent
Dante and Phil are off in NZ (having a cute little vacay while I rot here, thanks guys) so it’s been me and Kaedyn vs the world.

Life Two, the informal caregiver
Kaedyn’s in an intensive therapy program which basically means I’m on triple shift duty...caregiver, PA,Starbucks retriever. I even pulled my shoulder and flared my old tendonitis so my chiro got to give me the speech today. “You need to look after yourself.” Hahaha, okay, let me just pencil in self care between physio, parenting, meltdowns, and late night existential crises.

Life Three... The escapist aka the reader
By night, when sane people are asleep, I’ve been writhing (yes WRITHING) through Paladia within Alchemised. That fucking book!!

Like… 5 stars, masterpiece!!! my soul belongs to it now, I have been changed by it, but also... I have so many unanswered questions. So many situations that never got fixed. People who never took ownership. Loose ends!!!. It honestly left me filthy and shaken.

I finished it at 2am last night, sat upright in bed, stared at the wall like I’d just been personally victimized, then wandered my house like a ghost for 10 minutes before I had to force some sleep in.

And then today... I’m in Spudshed. Alone. I’m in the spice aisle, grabbing vegetable seasoning, and suddenly?? crying. Not a cute whimper, I’m talking streaming tears just pouring out of my face cause I gave that book a moment of thought. No sunglasses to save me either 😭

So naturally, instead of recovering like a normal person, I’m now considering reading it AGAIN. Like some sick personal challenge. Can I get through 1000 pages of emotional warfare before the boys get home from NZ? Probably not. Am I gonna try? …absolutely yes😂 cause what if I missed something 😩

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