My Wonderland

 Well… bear with me folks, I have updates😂 First of all, the first two weeks of high school have been wonderful!! Kaedyn has made some gorgeous new friends, he’s feeling calm, settled, and we’ve noticed such a significant shift in his mood that afternoons are no longer a full stew of stress. Last year looked very different... Home and therapy became Kaedyn’s safe places to let everything out,  sometimes becoming his punching bags too. School just wasn’t lighting him up anymore; he was ready for something that felt more mature, more his pace. So the rest of us learned to step back and let him work through that defiance… He’s even been willing to negotiate his scale of niceness towards Kal… (and to be clear, Kal is the absolute nicest — Kaedyn just happens to find encouragement deeply suspicious.) He's been loving his new OT, Sam, and is quite happy to kick me out and lay all the goss on her... It's my guess that he's talking shit about all of us hahaha Of course, there h...

I’ve hit 40,000 words and... No one’s been naked.  No one’s been pinned to a wall.  No one's been fucked, choked, or moaned against ancient stone. And yet I am emotionally devastated. Because I’m writing a slow burn.  Not “we kissed in chapter two and had sex by chapter four but we waited so it still counts.”  No, I mean aching. Yearning. Soul-level longing through prison bars. Meanwhile, the market?  It wants spice.  It wants dirty talk, thrust counts, and thigh-gripping  Fae who know exactly what to do with a willing mouth and a moss-covered log. And here I am… Terrified that if I don’t give the people what they want, if I don’t slide some smut between my battle scenes, I’ll close the door to a whole readership. That my books will be passed over for not being horny enough. And let me be real with you...every indie author I’m friends with writes smut. Every. Single. One. And that’s totally fine! I’m not here to judge what anyone writes, I’ll happily b...